If I say something like that, it'll be over right?

maturity. it's a word that probably means the transition from a adolescence to adulthood. it happens more in the form of "way of thought". How people going through maturity begins to see things from a different perspective.

this is just my opinion, but maturity is probably the point in time where a person starts to realise the importance of certain things. for an example, a student may realise the the importance of study. prior "maturity" thinking, the adolescent may think it is a waste of time or its just another lot of pointless work. after the transition, he would probably know that studies are important for his future.

in the paragraph above, the main focus is the thought of consequence for every action or act, imposed by an outside authority e.g. parent, teacher, or the thought of consequence by the individual himself.

elaborating on the topic of thought of consequence, again from my own stand point, there are many forms at which the thought can take place. let me highlight two forms that may occur in the person's mind.

the first form is "if i do this i'll get that?" or "if i do this, what will i end up with?". this is probably the first form of thought that occurs during transition. the curiosity that drives one to find out more.

second form in my opinion comes about something like this "i'll do this to get that". the difference is plain simple. someone going through the second form of thought KNOWS what he's doing and is AWARE of the resulting consequence. that's right. the main difference is the surety or confidence the person has when making the decision. this second form usually is preceded by the first form of thought though experience.

In short, maturity is something i believe is not in how the person looks like or how the person behaves. a grown man loving toys does does not mean he's childish right? right. it all goes into fact that how someone should be judge or seen is through his way of thought. this is simply isn't easy, but it's the way to get to know someone.

A deviation from the main topics related to interpersonal issues, i guess i should be happy right now. NTU HERE I COME!

there's no need for titles.

Been thinking of various stuff lately. the previous entry was about the contradiction that was made or should i say can be made when something arise.

Moving on. Today's topic will be a subject of equivalent exchange. The focus here would be the giving and return of deeds. surely enough, there's a point in life that we provided aid or vice-versa. once or twice may be okay, but what if it's something that happens well, not everday or week, but frequently, perhaps beyond what is considered by " excessive" by some people. there's a certain limit the giving party can tolerate.

being nice to people is good. but what if someone keeps asking for it? especially those who simply can't 'see' that they're asking too much. if you're a nice person, maybe you could brush these kind of things off. the giving party might probably be thinknig, " it's okay, i'm free to help... so and so...". here's the dangerous part. if these keep on happening, a sudden epiphany on the importance of equality in that relationship, would probably cause some ill feelings to swell. it may not be big or overwhelming, but ignoring it can lead to more unpleasant feelings.

these kind of feelings can not be simply let out. especially if the person is kind of close to you. you're afraid that even with that mini "unfairness" that's going on, you simply become afraid of straining or even breaking that relationship. it's understandable. every single human being wants should i say needs to be acquainted....

on the personal level, acknowledging the feeling of being treated unfairly is perfectly alright. no one should be deprived of fairness, even if it's only in the form of thought. you're free to run if you like. but dealing with it is simply the best.

going back to the main topic. the concept of equivalent exchange can be simply mean everybody should realise that for every thing they ASK must be acknowledged and thanked for. sometimes they may be required to come to the aid of others. do it. it's karma. whatever you get must be given back. not to the person who aided you yesterday or the day before. but to someone else. if people keep asking for things, people will realise how ugly they'd become. if they don't, they're just simply screwed.

Just remember to give something back. A simple thank you can mean mountains to the giver.

Think too much. That's something that's quite a thing going on in this life. it ain't bad to think of possibilities that could crop out from every single decision that a person make. but doing it to the extend of going overboard is definitely something to be aware of.

having a conversation with a long time friend about doing things on a whim does sometimes lead to regret. personally, i have to agree with that. major decisions need to be thought of deeply while considering all possibly consequence. being careful is good. but being over-the-top about it, does it help? it only leads to more cumbersome worrying. that is something i can say for sure.

the point is, stop thinking too much. it's such a idiotic thing to do.

Point A then to Point B then To Point C at which we went to Point D then taking bus to Point E then walked to Point F then Point G then back to Point F. That's what i did today.

the coming few days seems kinda bleak. not to mention with the lack of luck for finding jobs, now i have something else to do. fypeeeee. thought it was over. guess it just came back from hell.

went back to school for some discussions about the procedures and things needed for the upcoming event as well as discussions for the continuation of the project for the current 3rd years. sigh, at least i've got a reason to let myself out on that week.

anyway, watched detroit metal city yesterday, got word from my brother it's real funny, so i took his word and watched it yesterday. it turns out, real coarse humor. but hey!, that's what humor is right? :D

Sir Krauser once said or repeatedly yelled : F*CK!!!!!! ;D

history repeats itself. that's what those tevee or media clumps says. it's more of like the cool catchphrase for a show or story or something along that line. i guess there is some truth to it.

anyway, got the the exams results for the last polytechnic examinations, and pretty surprised with what i got. having that sort of result wasn't even in my scope of thought, or at least, it wasn't even in my wish list. think too much, will give some heart pains.haha.

with that, result slips will be sent out on the 24th and that piece of paper will determine where i'll end up next. that aside, graduation is on 27th, and i'm dying to attend it. good thing it's in the later afternoon, probably it's gonna stretch till night time, that's when the air is cool and photos will turn out pretty chic, in terms of composition and not the subject. XD

4 years ago, the same thing happened

alright. the smell of the the cake is killing me. there it sits slowly increasing in size....oh man. can't wait till it's done. i'm dying to dig in.

right, today is the start of the third week since school ended. though apparently i have no luck in the relief teaching job, it don't really matter. maybe i should just learn to like to bake or something. the first cake is still in the oven with the sweet aroma leaking out. damn, i'm going panzer soon. maybe aesthetically, it needs improvement. well, at least it's done. one brown slab of hot chocolate fudge cake with nutella spread over it. honestly, i can't find the complementary chocolate frosting, so nutella will have to do for now.

speaking of find stuff for cake, cold storage surprisingly has lots of baking utensils available. from the flexible muffin tray to the round cake tray....man, i'm itching to get those....maybe, i'd go for muffin making the next round :D.... cookie making is beyond my league for now :S

maybe one day, i'll have my own bakery.haha.

i sure need more precision when frosting XD

okay.went for chalet yesterday 4 days, 3 nights. but i went for 2 days 1 night anyway.had bbq. kinda nice. though managed to bring myself to consume 5 lovely sticks of satay. went around taking pics instead of eating. and yeah, at it least it satisfied me :D. stayed up through the night watching some thai horror movie and a soccer match. though no fan of soccer, watching matched once in a while is kinda nice. anyway, had a nap at 530 am and got up at 830 thanks to stomach ache and the chilly air. damn. went out to absorb some heat. got a company and took a stroll along the beach. took more pics of some dogs, sea and sand before heading back. had a pathetic breakfast of some crackers before more mahjong-ing and later movies and more movies till my time to leave came...